hello

Hi, I'm freaking out a little bit here. My plane for Paris leaves in 2 hrs and 15 mins and I'm so excited (+a little bit nervous) that I think I'm gonna burst! This means that in less than 24 hours I will be in Los Angeles.


How crazy is this???

i know a place, where the grass is really greener

Ask me if I'm nervous now.

The answer is yes. I don't know how this happened. Today it hit me though and now I'm nervous as hell. I'm mostly nervous about the short stay in Paris though, to be honest. Finding my way on the airport... from one terminal to another. All in less than one hour because I need to check in at least one hour before the plane to LA takes off. Apparently I need to go by bus from one terminal to another and yeah,

I'm just a bit stressed out. No big deal.

And I've been under the impression that flying from Paris to Los Angeles takes 10 hours. Apparently it takes 11 hours and 30 minutes... this makes me a bit worried as well. I'm a bit claustrophobic and I'm afraid I will start thinking about the fact that there's no way to "get out" once I'm up there. I'll just need to remind myself to breathe.

Had dinner with my family today and everyone wanted to chime in with suggestions, plans and ideas. LOL. I love them all but they're a bit insane. My aunt was planning all my outfits for me and asked me to get her a role in a movie. My grand pa was pretty much telling me to stay inside the whole time and not to anything because he's been watching CSI and all those shows and Los Angeles is an extremely dangerous place.  My cousins' only demand is that I find Michael Jacksons star on the walk of fame, lie down on the ground and take a picture next to it.

There was a lot more but those were the main things. Can't wait to get home and all them all about my experiance on the other side of the world. <3

In 24 hours I will be on the plane towards Los Angeles and it'll be about nine hours left until we touch down at LAX.

It feels so unreal still. I'm super excited!

we're all mad here

countdown: two days left

Had a really great evening with Kerstin and Fanny last night. Great music, great company, fun times. Love them both and I'm going to miss them while I'm in Cali! Now I'm off to eat dinner with my pears + siblings tonight. And tomorrow is dinner with the rest of the fam. My dad called today as well and wished me a great trip. Thursday was pizza + beer with a bunch of other friends. All of a sudden I feel super popular. I should go away more often. Haha. Today I've been doing laundry pretty much all day (gotta have some clean clothes in LA), tomorrow I'm going to pack... two days left. I'm dying a little bit out of excitement!

California White! Thought it might fit ;)

Wine + cheese + Kerstins foot...

video music awards 2k10

Just now (read: a few moments ago) I thought to myself... why not check MTV's website and find out when/where the VMA's take place this year... because I thought maybe I get to watch it when I'm in the US. It's always on at 3 AM in Sweden and I always work a lot during September to I rarley ever stay up and watch it (+ the re-runs are always on at such weird times).

Then I see that this year the VMA's will take place in Los Angeles and I died a little bit out of excitement until I saw the date... September 12th.

That's the freaking day I go home! Hahaha. Just my luck. My plane leaves at 4.30 and the VMA's start at 9 PM. This sucks so much. I wish I could extend my trip a few days. I think it's possible with the travel agency but then, there's the money trouble. I've been forced to shorten my trip already because I wasn't able to save enough money to stay as long as I wanted to (damn those dentists for stealing my money!!)...

...but hey, maybe this means I'll bump in to a celeb or two at LAX when they're flying in to attend the party? :)

how adorable is this?

"I bet that's Justin Bieber!" Hahahah.

somebody pinch me!

Dear blog,

I'm going to California in six days.

Yes.

Six. Freaking. Days!!!!

Everyone and their mother keeps asking me these two questions about my trip to Cali and it's starting to really annoy me. One: Are you excited about the trip? Umm. This might just be the most stupid question ever. Of course I'm excited and if you knew me, you'd know that going to USA & especially California has been my dream for a very very long time now. So why wouldn't I be excited? LOL. I'm going to freaking Los Angeles what is there not to be excited about? Don't mean to sound rude but this question was fun to answer the first 50 times I was asked.

Second question: Am I nervous about the trip? To be quite honest. No. I'm not. I'm going half way around the world on my own. To another continent. To a place I've never been before. I'll be so far away from everyone I know. Live with someone I've never met before and yeah... I'm not nervous. Not yet. I think maybe it's because... it still doesn't feel real. I've bought the plane tickets, my bags are standing in my bed room waiting to be packed but I don't think I will actually understand that I'm going until I'm actually sitting on the plane. Then I'll most likely be nervous.

It's been my dream for so long so I don't know... maybe a part of me still thinks it's all just a dream?

this song is stuck in my head

Normally Denmark & Danish scares me a little bit but this song... ahhh,
I want to dislike it but I can't. It's just so... catchy! And he's got such a
great voice too!!! I blame my sis for getting me hooked on this song, I've
done such a good job avoiding it so far (everybody and their mother have
been listening to this song forever now) LOL. But now I'm hooked too...

Damnit.

life.

this video says it all...

Loved every second of this show!

now it's only 10...

...days to go until I go to Los Angeles and it still feels kind of unreal. I don't think I'm actually going to understand that I'm going until I'm on that plane. I booked this trip at the end of March and since then time has gone by so quickly. Really... it feels like the months in-between have completely disappeared which is a good thing because I've been dying to get to Cali ever since... well, ever since a very long time now. The trip got shortened from three months to one month to two weeks (thanks to my lack of money) but at least I'm still going and two weeks is better than no weeks at all!

By this time, in 10 days I'm probably going to be at home still, nervous as hell... making sure I've packed everything and getting ready to go to the airport. My plane takes off at 12.30 on August 30th and I wonder if I will be able to sleep at all the night before I go. The less I sleep the better perhaps? Because then I'll be really tired and be able to sleep more on the 10,5 hour plane ride from Paris to Los Angeles. At 7.05 (local time) I will touch down in Los Angeles! Crazy!

All of this in only 10 freaking days. :D

Speaking of the number 10... I have to go work for 10 hours now. Yay. Only five more days left at work though, then I'm free for four weeks!!!

sad song by christina perri

picspam: all time low/gbg

best pasta salad in the world!!!

the granny panties which i don't think they actually saw :(

We didn't get many great pictures from the show because it was too... crowded. Seriously. Once you put your hands up in the air you could barley get them down again because there was no space! It was sick! And sweaty! And absolutely fantastic! I'm really not a huge All Time Low fan, I really like a few of their songs but that's about it... but still, I can't help but to fall a little bit more in love with them each time I see them live. Such energy. Such awesomeness! And they're so kind too! Yesterday there had been fans waiting outside in the rain the whole day for the show and the guys went out and bought pizza for all of them. How awesome is that?! This show easily gets in to the top 5 best shows I've ever seen. Maybe even top 3! I could barley move, at times I could barley even see them but it was so amazing! So much happiness. So much love! Ahhhh, take me back!! <3

granny panties for all time low

My sister and I also bought these huge, flower printed, granny panties that we're going to throw on stage tonight during the All Time Low concert. Yes, it's kinda silly but it's something I've always wanted to do. Not just All Time Low, any band, any artist + a huge pair of panties! LOL.

I have a bit of a plan actually, I think I'm going to write my twitter name on them somewhere and a little message... something like... "tweet me if you like older women". Hahaha. Which is funny because I am older than they are. I'm pretty sure they were born 87 and 88.. and I was born in 1986 so... hahah. At least I'm amused by this. I'll let you guys know how it goes! Although I can't tweet from my phone anymore, the internet on the silly thing has stopped working.

tuesday shopping

Today I bought some stuff (probably the last things I needed to buy) for my trip to Los Angeles! Bags, bags and more bags! The big, gray big one has this "double expand" function... a few zippers and I can fit twice as much on the way home. Haha. I doubt I'll need to use that function since I'm not exactly made out of money but still... just to be on the safe side, right?

i think i'm losing my mind

These freaking mood swings I have should be illegal. I haven't been feeling good today at all. I've been dizzy. I don't know how to explain it, at time it sort of felt like my head was inside this bubble and like I couldn't breathe. I'm obviously stressed out about something. Probably what I was talking about in my last entry. The future. Time's slipping by so fast and I just feel stressed out. It goes up and down. Like a roller coaster. One second I'm feeling awful and the next second I'm calm. Today's been extreme. I left my cell phone at home and I NEVER leave without it. I could barley speak to costumers (or co workers) because I was stuttering and stumbling on my words. I probably would have forgotten my head somewhere if it wasn't attached to my body. Blahhhhh!

I need vacation!!!!!

i can feel a hot one - manchester orchestra

This song is one of my absolute favorites,
so powerful that it almost hurts just listening to it.

It's been on repeat today.

enough is never quite enough

Don't really know what's up with me today. I've had one of those days where I really didn't want to leave the house. I've been on the couch pretty much all day watching TV. Thinking. I think too much sometimes. I think so much that it stresses me out. It can't be good for me that I overanalyze things as much as I do sometimes.

What's been on my mind today? Oh, just life. No big deal.

But really. I've been thinking a lot about this lately. About what to do with my life. I really don't know what I want to do. I know that I don't want to sell shoes for the rest of my life. That's for sure. I've been considering studying something but... what? I have no idea. And it feels really stupid to just go pay to school, take student loans and stuff when I really don't know what I want to do. I think I'm having some kind of mid life crisis or something. I just don't know what to do with my life and it's driving me absolutely crazy.

I wish I was the kind of person who could just pack a bag and get out of here. Go some place new, try my wings, do whatever and see where it takes me. But I'm not that person and I don't know if I will ever be able to change and become that person.

So this is what's been on my mind today and I really stress too much about this these days. And when I start thinking about it it's hard to stop. I started to panic a little bit a couple of hours ago. Felt like I couldn't breathe and all these thoughts were driving me half insane. So I went out for a walk. Was unpleasantly surprised by how humid it was (but that's besides the point). Went home to my mom's. Had tea with my mom and my sister. Talked a bit about everything and nothing. And I feel a bit better now.

I love them.

feeling victorious

yes, it's that time of the month

it's oh so quiet

I fell asleep to the sound of thunder around 2 AM and since I woke up around 10 it's been quiet. Too quiet. I'm not even kidding. I haven't heard anything besides the music I've been listening to. No sounds of neighbors outside my door or walking around in the apartment above mine. No sounds of people outside. No cars. No sound of birds. My phone has been awfully quiet as well. Now that there's no music on anymore I feel like I'm sitting in a little bubble. It's almost scary.

What's going on here? Am I dreaming? My first theory was that maybe I've gone deaf but that can't be it because I just listened to music. Did my hometown turned in to Zombieland after that thunderstorm last night? Am I the only survivor? Is this some kind of Friday the 13th curse? Or am I just going crazy?

I think I'm going to take a walk.

Oh, how I love having time off. Being lazy. Doing nothing but forming ridiculous ideas and plans in my head and wondering what it would be like if they were actually real.

It's not raining outside right now but it looks like it's gonna rain. I don't mind. I'm going to walk anyways. And it really is super quiet today. I don't mind about that either. Silence is golden sometimes especially after a hectic and annoying summer at work.

i've got two clocks in my kitchen...

The big one is "my time"... Swedish time, that is. The little one is California time. ;) It's 12 AM over here, noon, and it's 3 AM in Los Angeles. I think I'll let my mom borrow the little clock while I'm in L.A. I have a feeling she would appriciate that. LOL.

keltie colleen says a lot of brilliant things

"I am pretty sure that none of us have any idea just how special we really are.

Or we would spend a whole lot more time giving ourselves giant hugs celebrating all the things that we are instead of beating ourselves up over all the things we are not.

I am perfectly imperfect."


She's not just smart, she's absolutely gorgeous too and this is her blog. Read/follow for more awesomeness:

http://highkicksandhighhopes.blogspot.com/

oh kanye,

This man is like a huge dilemma for me... I don't really want to like him but at the same time, I can't help but to secretly love him and all the shit he does/says. I'm talking about the Taylor Swift drama, of course. I know it's old but let me finish, I've got a point with this... I swear! ;) It's been about a year and I remember even from the start I couldn't really "pick a side". Everyone was siding with Taylor and I wanted to because I felt sorry for her but at the same time. What Kanye did, really amused me for some reason, and Taylor did get to say her thank you's later. Yes? Beyoncé called  her up on stage and shit. But yeah, that's not even what I wanted to talk about...

I listened Kanye's new song with Beyoncé 'See Me Now' and in the end of it there's a line that goes "Imma let you finish but I've got Beyoncé on the track" and people are pissed saying his dissing Taylor again. Personally I feel like he's just making fun of himself/the whole situation... I mean "Imma let you finish but..." has become somewhat of a classic line. Everyone else has been using this line and made fun of him. Why shouldn't he get to use it? He invented the line.

The song ('See me Now') is... okay. Not more, not less. It didn't make me go 'wow' like some of Kanye's older songs. Compared to his other stuff it was kind of boring but when I heard this line at the end of it... I couldn't help but to love it! At least the last thirty seconds or so, the rest is just blah-blah-blah.

I guess I had no real point with this. Just wanted to rant a bit. I do that sometimes.

"Yo, T-swizzle, Imma let you finish but my hair is so ugly it made an onion cry"

so much to do, so little time

So much to do at work today. So many new kinds of shoes. I seriously don't get why they're sending us so much winter shoes + boots now though. It's August!!! It's still summer. There's got to be some other kinds of boots and shoes they can send us before they go crazy with the fluffy winter shoes. It's really annoying because right now the store's a mix with sandals, 'normal' shoes and winter shoes. LOL. Looks like a mess if you ask me. Oh well, summer's almost over, I guess. Which means the sandals are soon to be gone.

Either way. I'm super tired and I've got nine more hours to work tomorrow so I'll be going to bed now. Can't wait for this weekend! Three days off in a row - I can't even remember the last time this happened! Yaaaay! <3

no regrets, just love

Katy Perry - New Music - More Music Videos

i need this in my life

Anyone who wants to buy one for me... feel free to... ;)

i was in the mood for ice cream today...

bad hair day though :(

all time low @ brewhouse

It's not even been a year since I last saw All Time Low live (and met them) with my sister and next Tuesday it's time again. They're coming back to Gothenburg and I just purchased tickets today! Can't wait! This time I will actually be able to sing a long to more than one song as well. LOL. Proud!

This is what it looked like the last time me and my (slightly insane) sister saw ATL...

tomorrow, tomorrow. i love you, tomorrow.

I have the day off tomorrow and I don't even know how to describe for you guys how awesome this feels! Haha. I've been working the whole summer. I can't even remember the last time I had two days off in a row. I am so, so, so tired. It almost feels like I'm going on vacation tomorrow - even if it's just one lousy day off! I love this feeling though. I'm going to sleep in, eat pizza leftovers for breakfast, chill and then go celebrate my dear mother's birthday!

Oh, tomorrow will be great.

somebody pinch me

Tomorrow it's exactly three weeks until I leave for Los Angeles. I can't believe it. Feels like it was just yesterday I booked this trip and now the time to leave is almost here. Cuh-razy!! Two weeks in hopefully sunny California. Unreal. I need to make a serious list over things to bring and then I need to see if I have all those things or if I need to go out and get them. So far I'm feeling pretty chill about this but I'm sure I'll start stressing out soon enough... especially about the plane ride. Oh well, I shall make this things to bring to Cali list tomorrow!!

i love this video a little bit too much!

When I have a kid I hope she/he will be as badass as Pearl, the Landlord!

I fell asleep with a braid in my hair so this morning it's all wavy and cute. I wish I could wake up with hair like this every morning and I hope it doesn't take five seconds for it to get ruined.

Today is work day. Working on Sundays is usually quite okay. I mean, obviously there's things I'd rather do but... we get paid twice as much on Sundays than on week days so yeah, that's quite lovely.

After work it's soccer time. Watching today's game at Mikkaela's place. Yesterday she sent me a text telling me to 'come hungry'... and this morning she sent me another one saying 'are you still on a diet?' LOL. I'm excited now cause I gave up that diet months ago! ;)

just sayin

Sparkling wine is one of my favorites! Just thought I'd share this with you!

emma watson's new do

So Emma Watson cut all her hair off and people seem to either hate it or love it! I am one of those who absolutely loves it! She looks like a little bit like Twiggy and/or Mia Farrow. It's gorgeous, in my opinion. But then again... to me Emma is one of those girls who can go bald, wear a freaking trashbag and still look absolutely dashing! She's super brave for doing something like this too!!! I would love to be brave enough to do something like that... I don't think I could ever do it though (even though I most certainly feel like it sometimes). I know it's "just hair" and that it grows back out again but it's still so scary.

Props to Em though. Looking good! I wonder if it's for a movie or something or if she did it just because... I hope she did it just because!

question time: like it's her birthday

Who is the first girl you think of when hearing "Like It's Her Birthday"?

My answer = Mikkaela!

'show us your tits'

Thought I'd might as well start this blog off with a bang and tell y'all a great story about something that happened to me, my cousin and my sister today! Good times! We were on our way to the airport to pick up our grand parents who were coming home from Finland today, we were on the highway and this van with a bunch of guys in drive past us. We didn't think very much about them until we drove past them a few minutes later and they had made a sign and put it in their window... a sign that said 'Show us your tits'. LOL! Classy, I know.

They drive past us again and now they're holding up the sign one more time and we're just giggling like a bunch of school girls. We drive past them again... and then as they're about to drive past us a third time I decide that I need to do something. They were obviously not going to stop until we showed them something and things were starting to look like a street race so I decided to take the matter in to my own hands... I unbuckled my seatbelt, pulled down my shirt and pressed my breasts against the window. I was wearing a bra but still, I'm sure they got a nice view... ;) One of the guys were even filming and/or taking pictures. Youtube next? LOL.

Hilarious. Absolutely hilarious!